Well, well, well, it’s been a while!
Can you believe it’s been two years since I’ve last posted on here? Two years!
Giant Little Steps was being pulled in many different directions – recipes, reviews, daily life, creative writing- it was difficult to know what the blog was aiming to do. In starting this website, I had hoped to share my experience of life with anorexia, and to create an awareness about the illness along with breaking any stigmas or stereotypes attached to it. Once the site was officially up and running, I felt so self-conscious to share any part of my journey with you guys – it was still so fresh for me. Every week I would plan a post that would be related to eating disorders, and then very quickly chicken out of it. How could I sit behind a computer screen telling you that everything gets better and to hang in there, when I didn’t believe that myself? I couldn’t, so I decided to channel parts of myself into Giant Little Steps. I shared with you my attempts at cooking- which didn’t last long because I became increasingly afraid of food. There was the ‘Thoughts of an Incompetent Clothes Shopper’ post, joking about how laborious the shopping-trip with my mum was, when actually the whole day was pretty much filled with anxiety and hating the way I looked in the mirror.
It was because I wasn’t being honest on the blog, and I didn’t feel comfortable with showing you the ‘fake-me’, that I stopped posting. I wanted to be an example of what recovery was like, and I wasn’t in a position to do that; at the time I didn’t even want to try to get better.
Two years later – here I am! Ready and excited to let Giant Little Steps be what it was intended to be. I am going to be writing posts about recovery, exploring the way one eating disorder can lead to another, the ridiculous diets I put my body through (spoiler: none of them worked), and so much more. I don’t want this to be something that people are ashamed to talk about, because it’s more common than you think.
I want this blog to be for everyone, whether you are suffering with anorexia or another eating disorder, if you’ve recovered, or if you’re just curious! Don’t be afraid to ask questions, because I’m not afraid to answer them.
Giant Little Steps is back and ready with weekly posts, so make sure you look out for them!